hey, you,.. chances are you won't read this .. so why mention your name. I just wanted to say.. I've known you for sometime now.. and everything just kinda jumble together still every time i see you. There may have been that time where you might have thought... but you don't have a clue how i really feel about you..
really theres not much thats going to change.. because I;m not just going to throw myself out there...because theres a her..
Theres a part of me that just wants to move on.. I really do.. because this is one of those things.. where I really am just dreaming... I've never gotten my hopes up when it comes to you and i really dont plan on it.
Do you notice.. how when i talk to you I still look away??...
part of me feels like you think I'm foolish.. and just a child.. and almost as if you talk down to me .. but not really...
part of me feels like im just overreacting about everything.. like always.. but
Yeah i feel like i should be able to talk to you by now.. but I can't.. I don't know why.. I get really nervous and start to stutter and i feel like a complete fool. because I'm afraid what I am thinking in my head might actually come out in conversation..
I wish i could just sit you down.. for a day.. somewhere.. and just talk... about everything.. but I want you to respond the way I want you too.. and thats is why when i think about you .. its just me dreaming.. wishing for what I can not have.
sometimes i really feel like I've moved on.. but then.. I see you and it all comes back.. Its a fricken curse..and since day one.. I've been wishing for this mindless crush to end..
so if by chance you read this... some way.. some how.. Hello.. I'm here and you're obviously on my mind.
xoxO
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