My birthday weekend has begun.

Starting it off right by stay up till 7 am

The RNC 2012 ... So Far

Oh Boy… Where do I start? 

Okay maybe I will start with where I stand, I am registered as undeclared because I want the right to vote no matter if it is a republican or democratic primary. However my point of view leans towards the Democratic party. 

I watched Ann Romney last night. Honestly I feel a sleep a few times. However I was shocked to hear that everyone was impressed by her speech. I was thrown back when I heard that even NPR approved of her public speech skills.  

I none the less was not impressed. 

She stared straight ahead at one teleprompter, rarely scanning the crowd and not even giving herself the basic left, right, and center points in the audience to focus on. Secondly she stumbled over the simplicity of what her speech was. I’m pretty sure there was one point where she almost called Mitt “sexy” by accident. 

Paul Ryan was alllloott better on his presentation and he does have some pretty eyes. To be honest you can tell he took some Speech and Debate classes in college.  So well played there  Mr. Eddie Munster. 

However the Speeches contents leave a lot to be desired. Both of them. They both revolved around God, and Romney’s sense of humor. They both tried to make their team seem like they are normal everyday americans. Even though at one point I’m pretty sure Ryan admitted to living the “American Dream”. Which I am pretty sure is something that most Americans can’t achieve and that is why it is still referred to as a “dream”. 

I was told both night on the terrible things that Obama has not fixed, and how they will be fixed. However I have not been told how. 

Ann talked a lot about supporting women and how women have hard lives. Trying to make it seem like women are important but still kind of stereotyping them into a group, instead of just including both men and women, cause I’m pretty sure men have hard lives also.

Also there was all this talk from her on how women are important and have a right and blahblahblah but wasn’t it the republican party that recently stated that it is a women’s fault if she gets pregnant from rape and she enjoyed it enough that her body didn’t shut down properly? 

All in all, I am quite interested on tomorrows speech from the one and only. I’ll be sure to keep track on how many times god is mentioned in the speech. Cause you know, we are really keeping that god and state thing separate… 

This weekend has kinda sucked.

Everything that can go wrong, has.

It is like "Drive Gianna Crazy" week at Sears... I apparently missed the commercial for that sale.

I have spilt excessive amounts of glitter, bruised many spots of my body.. possibly gave my self a concussion. Locked my keys in the car and stepped on my dogs tail.

I have 5 days left of work and I just want to make them worth my time. It's monday, I have tomorrow off to just stop and rewind from working 6 days straight. Breath a little, possibly hang out with some interesting friends.. Get out of the house.

Maybe I will even clean and pack some things..

I really don't know why I have been feeling so weird. It's strange, I feel like I've been complaining a lot.. wich isn't me.

I also feel very sad... wich is also not me.

There are a few things going on in my life that are scaring me for when I go back to school, but I don't want to talk to anyone about it cause I know... I won't be able to keep it together.. and I would love to tell my mom but she has so much stress I don't need to give her something eles to worry about.

So for now I will let it sit and see if I can figure out my life and settle my fears on my own.

goodnight for now.

XOxO

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“There was only so much you could do”, they say…

Or they give you the ” You did the best you could.”

I don’t believe this. No matter how much I’m told this.. there is something in me that refuses it. I don’t want it to be right.

I feel like if I actually did everything I could the ending would be different. I wouldn’t be so upset right now. I would actually be smiling. I would go to bed and wake up happy.

I do believe that things happen for a reason… but I don’t necessarily believe that we are suppose to know why, but I think dealing with life .. or death… would be so much easier if we did.

I have gone through this alot and I know it’s not going to stop, but it just doesn’t get any easier to deal with.


I guess the reason why I refuse to accept that I did my best, is because one day I really hope I can actually do everything I can and have a happier ending. 

I love American Standards.

If a guy the same age as me ( 19/20)  says that a 16/17 year old girl is attractive in any manner they are perverted or wack or gross or a rapest.. 

However I could be attracted to a 17 year old boy and well… theres really nothing of it. 

Leaving is Going to Be Bittersweet.

Unlike Stop and Shop, I am kind of hesitant on leaving Sears.

It was soooo easy, because there were soooo many factors contributing to why I needed to leave Stop and Shop.  Sears is different.

I have met some really great people here. (Not just the old ladies like at S&S) People that I have actually hung out with and talk to outside of work.... I guess you call people like that ... "Friends"? ;]

and of course, because I am me... there are people I do not care for. But I find that everywhere.

However there are things I absolutely hate about the job, like the management and the credit.  I can not stand having to sign people up for credit cards because I don't want to make them feel bad if they don't get accepted(a lot don't) and I hate causing them problems and taking up their time. When customers get mad I take it personally, when really it is the stores fault.

I hate how the ASM's tear you down and make you feel like crap to get you to do "Better", even if you weren't doing poorly to begin with.

YET! The pay is not the best but they give a lot of hours. I do have a good time, some days, and I learn new things.  And there are a lot of hot guys that work there.


I think my best bet is to just leave because I'm not happy there. I still feel as if I don't fit in and I also  just want to make people happy not cause them problems.  I don't want to be told I am a bad worker and that I have poor customer service. Nor do I feel the need to prove them wrong.

I am going to leave there saying I did/learned something new, and that I now know that retail is not for me.

Now it is time to start saving and thinking more about school work. Come December the search for a new paid adventure. =]

xoxo
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