Oops!

kinda havn't posted since may... 23rd.. .... don't hate.

If only I could get my tumblr synccd to mah blogger.. like would be sooo much better!
heres whats up.
I work at stopp and shop...

I started off as bagger
they loved me so much they put me on register
I got a raise... went from 7.40/hr to 7.60
theey started taking union dues out.... 18 dollars a week...
I convinced them to train me on easy shopper last nigt..
I'm leaving the 31st.


I went to Glee Live 3d, Marina and the Diamonds.. The premeiere of X-men 1st class, First Avenger, Harry Potter!, Glee Live 3D Movie, and rocky horror picture show
I also saw planet of the apes at a resonable time of day. =D! GREAT MOVIE!

I failed at facebook stalking and I have been raising a ferrel kitten on my porch..
I barely have seen friends from school and I love it..
I wrote a few letters to Emma...but I never mailed them... I forgot I have them written... they are still all in my noteboook.

I feel like I have neglecting more than just this blog.. and I'm sorry if you've been on of the neglections.. but when its summer.. I don't really think...or do... I just kinda chill..

Thats pretty much it!
Hope erryone is doing swell~
<3 love ya all!
--Gianna Mufasa!

How do you say, "I told you so", without sounding cocky?

4 words, that are the verbal smack in the face.

*beware this is going to be a pat my own back post*

I am a very observant person, and maybe its the way I grew up but I keep family and friends close. I am also very picky about my friends. I don’t get attached to people, and I don’t surround myself with people who put themselves in the position to get hurt. It’s one thing where you naturally get hurt, but I can’t stand when you put yourself in the situation where you know nothing good can come from it. So when I tell you how I feel, its not just because I’m ignorant, its because I feel something isn’t right and something bads going to happen. Maybe it’s a sixth sense but I just get a feeling.

So after I tell you to maybe reconsider you’re choices or after you go behind my back, and try to hide things from me because you think I’m ignorant, or I don’t know whats going on, and you end up getting crushed, turned down, backstabbed, dumped, confused, and scarred. I won’t be the one to pick up the pieces, I’m now the bitch. Or at least I would like to be.

I would love to just scream, I told you so… from the rooftops, I would love to just laugh in your faces, or just do victory laps around all of you. I could be that person.

But I’m not.

I don’t want to be that person. I want to just be happy. So how do I say “I told you so” in a resolving way. How do I say, I told you so and I am really not sure how this friendship is going to work because you refused to listen to me, because you didn’t trust me, because you think I’m stupid. I’m not, I was right, I usually am right, and I can’t be friends that lack trust in me. I want to express how I feel, I want to be listened to, and I want to not be taken as a joke.

How can I be right?

lets just take some time to recap what has just happened.

I finished my first year of college. I said goodbye to people I would never see again last night. and now...

well now I have 4 months to do whatever the hell I would like.


its funny to think about the begining of my freshman year in comparison to now.. and to look at the rollercoaster I just rode.

some people I started off close to, then we stopped talking, and now were okay..
some people I started off super close to, and at the very end.. well that was the end.
some people I didnt know who they are.. and now were besties.
and well some people just stayed acquaintances.

its just interesting to see how much these people can change, in just 7 months.

okay so some of the people realllllyy ... I mean reeealllly got on my nerves.. but I really do not think I would have survived the whole year in a different department. I would be lost in a university this large with out being forced to work with a small group of people year round.

I moved into an engineering dorm second semester and I woulkd talk to some of the people and watch some of their tutoring sessions.. that shits mad confusing.. and aloot of work..
but then I think.. if they were thrown into a quick change they would probably shit their pants.


well anyway... URI Theatre.. it has been a great year, thanks for all the awesomeness, can't wait for next year...


well I can wait.. but It wont be that bad when I go back! :D!

I'm in that phase where my writing sucks..

because Glee is once again...


TAKING OVER MY LIFE! <3

Hmm So long time no post..

Why?

because I am just fed up with everything. I am so fed up that I don't want to complain. but today...

ok so I'm not a bragger...



BUuuutttTTTt


I TOLD YOU SOOO..


ha.

it was fun while it lasted? I hope you enjoyed all the stress it caused you.

=]
have a good life, cause I am not here to coddle... ANYONE. sucks 4 you.

Soo How exactly do you expect me to deal with this?

I know if I talk to about this in person, I'm just going to get the defensive talk. So what, you want me to bottle it up. Ok so I have been bottling it up for like 3 weeks now ... and this is my breaking point. you may think its not a big deal but it is for me. Because I am forced to bottle it up, I pile everything up on my back.. and then .. theres that one thing that breaks the straw. thats why I started tumblr, so I could just vent.. but I guess you don't approve of that way, so where am I left?

OK I AM HURT. what eles is there for me to say.. you think I don't hear the whispers or see you avoiding me.. god thats bull shit.

I wanted this to between me and you, I have not involved anyone in anything. so now I can't approach you because you have involved everyone eles.. that I feel is also bullshit. This isn't about anyone eles but me and you.

and you wonder why I find this childish... I dont understand why this needs to spread the department.

it just pisses me off. sorry.. what am I suppose to do when Im hurt?

I really don't enjoy reading.

Once and a while, I find a book by Ellen Hopkins or James Patterson that I truely will find myself engrossed in. However, while walking through Barnes And Noble today, I found myself in the abyss of vampire lust and teenage angst young adult novels, I thought to myself why. We spend hours of our life getting ourselves so caught up in these stories. The stories about imaginary friends and mysterious next door neighbors trying to find the purpose of the journey we call life. We get attached to these make believe situations to the point where we laugh, cry, and feel with them. we suffer their pain and take on their problems. However once they have reached their destination we feel their accomplishment. It is like the author has written a mini series in your life.

Here is when I ask Why. I tend to like to question everything. It seems to give everything a little more meaning and validation. Because if you can’t answer the question it is not worth the time.

Everyone has their own issues. Weither you can’t figure out what to wear tonight or if your father is suffering from a brain tumor. We all have our stories. So what is the point in reading about imaginary humans nonexistent lives. are you trying to find answers to solve your own problems, or are you just looking to escape?

Everyone is so worried about making the best of their lives. Theres a saying, Life is short, Seize the day. I agree with Carpe Diem, however the life is short part I’m not to sure about. The life expectancy overall in the United States is 78.3 years.

How the hell is that short?!

I guess if you are comparing it to the billions of years the earth has supposedly been around, yeah it’s pretty short. But the fact that you need to worry about making the best of your life just seems like a waste.

Carpe Diem, Seize the Day. Means to just take it day by day. if you do that, you have about 28, 488 days to laugh, cry, suffer, exceed, party, fuck, fuck up, and well just live.

Isn’t that enough?

People make mistakes, I find that acceptable, no body is perfect. Nobody has anything that is perfect. Not even Hugh Jackman is perfect..=]… So why not let yourself slip.

However, if you are so worried about making the best out of your life. Don’t make the same mistake twice. those mistakes are made to learn from. I feel like the people, or well, to be stereotypical, the loud,drama filled, GTL, hoochies and playas, that say they live for the day, go out get overly intoxicated to the point where they are probably making decisions that one day they are just going to kick themselves for.

That is not enjoying life. Enjoying life does not include regrets. It just doesn’t make sense to me. I feel like thinking before an action is made is not a waste of time. It is the best way of not injuring yourself and the ones around you.

While you get yourself engrossed into the lives of the protagonist ask yourself, why you are reading this. If your looking for your some answers or a guide. put it down. you write your own story, noone eles. So next time you step into a new chapter, Think a little, act, love, cry, fall, but pick yourself right back up. Hopefully you can, at the end of the day say,

”..and I lived happily ever after.”

So Here is how I Really feel.

and I prefer that you don’t ask me anything after reading this.. kthnks.

I’m pretty sure I’ve said before, if you try to hide things from me … even “little” details, I will find out. Thats just how I work.

and when I do find out… it pisses me off. A lot.

If you’re afraid to say something to me because you know I will comment on it… shouldn’t that make you realize the decision you made wasn’t the smartest.

I don’t call people out on little things, and when I do call people out on things.. it doesn’t mean I’m mad.. its a hey… take a look at your life suggestion. But when you hide something from me and then I find out.. I get mad.

There is alot of crap I put up with… and hypocrisy is not one of them. and there has been a lot of it going around lately. you tell me one thing or complain about something and then you turn around and do the complete opposite… Just admit it you like the attention. I’m sick of the complaining.. This is why I like being home. I don’t have to deal with this shit. It is just like fucking high school. It is all bullshit.

you know the situation you are involved in. its a situation you really can’t be on both sides for. you know what right from wrong. you make your own choices and you make your own mistakes. I am not here to comfort and console you anymore when you fuck up. Im not anyone’s mother.. I’m not going to feel bad or worry or really listen to you bout it anymore.

I have my own life to live and my own mistakes to make. So when It comes to this… cause well you tired to hide something.. that you don’t think is that big of a deal.. that I find kind of really stupid, I’m just going to ignore you. I don’t want to hear about this anymore…. This is the last time Im going to think about it. you can deal with, what you tell me is a problem but then go and egg it on, on your own.

Strange Sex

When a male Manakin is mating, they simply dance. They do the moonwalk, to woo their women.

Porcupines, the male.. well he stands up on his hind legs and pisses on her.

think thats weird? Dolphins… they have retractible penis’s that also work as hands..

But wait! That is nothing compared to this.

This one species, They primp themselves, give themselves pep-talks, puff up their chests. Let themselves get this ego that is telling them just how worthy they are. They scope the area for their next mate, who they want as their next victim. If they can’t choose they take advice and let their biased pack members choose for them. They find their lady.. it’s almost as if they have spotted their prey. Instead of just making their move, or getting on their hind legs and pissing on her, they fight the other males in the pack. There is no reason for this, besides marking their territories, like they have the right to claim the female before she has been wooed.

Here comes the wooing. These males, puff up their chest, arms, and legs.. and eyes. Then they just sit and watch. They watch the females every move. Then one awkward moment, they make some strange move… like cornering the female. Making her feel completely uncomfortable. Then, they go back, and stare, watch, creep, prey. Then the awkward move. They keep going back and fourth, finally realize the female has no interest and gets mad. They get angry. They don’t get angry because they had just made a fool out of themselves. They don’t get angry because they realize they were stupid for thinking that because they wanted something they couldn’t have it. they don’t get angry because they lied to their pack mates because he made them believe he had it goin’ on. He gets angry because the female doesn’t give in and the female pretty much shits on him.

Now lets say this male did woo his mate, by his quite strange actions. Unlike most mating rituals, he doesn’t just pounce her and get it on…Sometimes… He treats her like royalty.. for about, maximum.. 3 months. Then he lets his puffed chest get to big and all hell breaks loose and he decides, this isn’t the right mate. For him, He easily moves on to the next female, that will fall into his trap.

This my friends, is how men mate. This morning I decided to Google, strange mating habits, and I’m not sure why mankind was not on any of the lists.

lets hope..

todays a little less awkward than yesterday.

thanks.

Maybe..

Maybe I’m not one whose afraid Maybe I’m not the one who can’t reconnect Maybe it’s not my fault we fell apart. Maybe you’re the one who has trouble saying hello. Maybe you want it. Maybe you need it. Maybe I’m just crazy. I’m probably not the one.

I thought you'be be happy?

Don’t get me wrong. Who doesn’t love a little attention now and then? I guess part of me loves it. Actually I love it when it happens. I’m the moment I’m on cloud nine. But then after it happens I feel wrong. Like I had just woken up after a one night stand. Wrong and confused.
And that’s the truth. I’m confused.

God do I wish I could say that out loud.

I know what I want an what I want belongs to someone else. This is when I get after myself for falling for silly things. I’m sorry but I’m going home to get away.

so glee starts back up February 6th..

as we should all know ...
they are doing a Super Bowl special..but within that special.. THRILLER!!!!!!

and the photos make it look AMAZING!!
gahhh!!

I Cant WAIT!

and its all soo true.

http://www.politifact.com/truth-o-meter/promises/obameter/rulings/promise-kept/?page=4

Poem? I wrote

forget your cries 

perfections another try. 

changing colors,  seems just too fake. 

close your eyes.  see the world for another side. 

try not to wake, 

for shame is a reason to hide.

I don't want be your sad excuse for anything. 

looking at your face is the same as every other human being. 

don't try to tell me your right.

cause I have a feeling you might…

just lie. 

this is going to sound weird But . .

Since College I have become less and less intellectual.. I need someone to debate with to get my flow back..

YEahh soo last week I went and saw disney Princesses on ice..

IT WAS BEAST!

winter vacation so far..

Glee
Cake Boss
Parties
Family
friends
Cory Monteith
reality tv
and Cheenoooo
=]]]

its actually pretty boring . =p